by Jane Futcher

It wasn’t easy fitting in at an exclusive girls’ school like Huntington Hill. But in her senior year, Jinx finally felt like she belonged. Even her dream of going to art school in New York City seemed more real every day. And best of all, Lexie wanted her for a friend. Beautiful, popular Lexie, who could have anything or anyone she wanted. The other girls said it could never work – Lexie was too spoiled, too demanding. But just being near Lexie made Jinx feel dizzy and scared and wonderful at the same time.

Chapter One

Our friendship began on a clear, crisp October after- noon one month after the start of senior year. The Warren Commission had just announced that a single gunman, not a conspiracy, had assassinated John Fitzgerald Kennedy. In Jackson, Mississippi, the public schools were integrated without violence. And in a few weeks, the names Barry Goldwater and Lyndon Baines Johnson would be posted in every polling booth in America. But at Huntington Hill, it was the day before the second hockey game of the season, and they had put me back on the team. Click to Read More.

New introduction by Dr. Marny Hall

“Originally published in 1981, Crush became an instant bestseller in the lesbian community, where reviewers and booksellers praised the novel for its engaging characters, dry wit, page-turning plot and moral sting. The book was among the first novels written in the voice of a teenaged girl upended by the exhilaration of new love for someone of her own sex. Caught in the thrall of attraction to the beautiful and bad Lexie Yves, Jinx Tuckwell hovers on the edge of ecstasy, teetering dangerously close to what she calls ‘the deep end.’”
Dr. Marny Hall, clinical psychologist and author of The Lavender Couch and The Lesbian Love Companion


Praise for Jane Futcher’s Crush
“The emotional facts of this novel ring true. Jane Futcher has tried to present the confusing, terrifying dilemmas that accompany any step out of the narrow band of acceptable behavior that society tolerates.”
— Dorothy Allison, author of Bastard Out of Carolina, in New York Native

“The characterization is outstanding; the hurt, bewildered Jinx; her loyal roommate; and the smooth, calculating headmaster. Lexie is a superb portrait of a fascinating but unreliable and dangerous personality.” — The Horn Book magazine

“A good ear for dialogue and a good eye for a scene and a good memory for the sickening incomprehensions of adolescence.” — Helen Vendler, professor and literary critic for the New York Review of Books, in a letter to the author